Sense of Lack

 I think so many times we feel like we're lacking something in our lives and we try to fill it with the wrong things. Sometimes it's drugs, sometimes it's a relationship you shouldn't be in. -Stacie Orrico

"there is something wrong with me, there is something missing” this is egoic mind that causes a deep-seated sense of lack or incompleteness, of not being whole manifests as insecurity and ungroundedness. Likewise, ego narrates, I am not pretty, too fat, not knowledgeable or not talented, not rich enough etc. This feeling of inadequacy, deficiency, is an epidemic and begins early as children, a sense of unworthiness comes from parents and family judging and criticizing for falling short of being the best in everything, for not being special, should work harder, look a certain way, act a certain way.

I lack this….means that I feel something is wrong with me right now, a hole, and hollowness at the core of my being that needs to be filled. In response to feeling of present incompleteness, triggers an urge and hope to find that I believes would fill the cavity and gives happiness in future. Then I starts planning projects for more money, better relationships, ideal partner, family, successful career, material assets etc. Accomplishment of goals and ambitions attainments may briefly bring peace but soon lack is back.

Investigate mind patterns; who is lacking? Where is lack arising from? Don’t expect to resolve the sense of lack in the realm of a doer, for a desire to feel complete, it is nothing but serving the self. Watch habitual behavior -desire, lust, cravings, and neediness arising from unconscious mind. The egoic compulsive pursuit for gratification to fulfill the inadequacy.

When you feel yourself lacking something, send your thoughts towards your Intimate and search for the Divinity that lives within you.- Aristotle

Lacking and poverty mindset is conditioned thinking is part of egoic consciousness and being unawareness of it. A model that does not realize the presence of Self in the moment is lost in perpetuating thoughts of sense of neediness that manifests in reality -never to be filled; a bottomless pit. And so the seeking goes on and on – always waiting for a permanent sense of total completion that never comes.

Sense of lack that everyone is trying to escape in various ways. Depends if you are a person with a history or a being gone beyond all historical stories; trying to find completion in time through getting stuffed.  Seek freedom from sense of lack by going beyond to the awareness and see the truth. Being the presence in the background empowers to choose the right action and not succumb to the thoughts of lack. Giving and generosity is powerful antidote for sense of lack, it is affirmation of abundance. This practice can awaken true intelligence and strengthen awareness.

Sense or feeling of incompleteness can be a nudge from grace, a gentle reminder of a time to let go, to think for a possible change in direction in life, explore and realize the true potential, the true self and the fullness of life.

Be Content with what you have; rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.- Laozi

🙏 May all be freed from suffering and may their true nature awaken. 

Thank you. 🙏🙏

I Stories

“We are all born as storytellers. Our inner voice tells the first story we ever hear.” ― Kamand Kojouri

Believing the narratives woven by thoughts people live a fictional life. The melodrama, fantastic romance, dreams, tragedies, the ego tells the story to itself. Filling the space with imagination, hopes, wishes, fantasy, riding high in ecstasy, and low down in dumps in its own narration. It is like turning pages of fictional novel. It has everything victimization, heroism romancing and story is incomplete without a villain. Family drama revolving around neglect abuse blame and scapegoatism. It is all about I, me, mine; a person emerges from the story. If one doesn’t have a story, if one is not a character in a story then one don’t exist. Mind is a story telling machine. Hence, it is not easy to not believe in a story. Story for everything bad marriage, problematic children, loneliness, an enlightenment story. Even prepared to kill or die for a religious fiction, an ideal or a principle in pursuit of heaven.

Thoughts drag one into falsely created drama only when there is reaction to the stories. Stories to manipulate each other and configure relationships. The person stories acted out seem so real, and hard to get out of the convoluted mess. Believing in external circumstances and drama of bad relationships, difficult marriage etc making it worse and strengthens the character.

Dis-identifying and disengaging from stories, when one stops living in stories, fictions and delusions, then the mind space clears. Seeing through the romance and tragedy, truth is revealed then they seem foolish and comical. Life experiences seems silly and trivial which once appeared as life and death situations.

Commit to detached observation of oneself, be present and know the truth about -my life stories. See the Self is absolute awareness, an impersonal witnessing presence in which all such stories appear.

Do we really want the truth, or do we want a truth that fits our narrative? -Daniel Cameron

Transcending the ego, realizing the truth of Self and realizing the falseness of the story and the character is liberating. But unaware of the truth an ego mind would be lost in darkness, may be driven to psychosis being terrified of its own nonexistence, when it is characterless without a story. This fragile vulnerable ego can easily be caught in another’s story that would be a never ending story. Ego is dependent and founded on life chronicles, it exists and sustains on stories.

I stories are always forever incomplete, hoping, searching and moving towards a happy future. Pay no attention to any I stories —they all are false.

“As human beings, we are all not conducting just one narrative but many narratives all at the same time.” ― David Hare

🙏 May I be the guiding light for all those on the path to realize their true nature.

Thankyou !!

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Look Behind Clouds

You are the sky. Everything else – it’s just the weather. ― Pema Chödrön

Fundamental nature is like clear blue sky open, infinite, uncompounded. The clouds appearing across the sky gives the dual view cloud is blocking or obscuring the view of sky. Similarly, we get involved and lost in all that is arising in mind thoughts feelings images perception. Accepting, rejecting, editing, manipulating, constructing to our preferences. But the sky behind the clouds is unaffected remains clear pristine blue, it stays unnoticed, forgotten. Likewise, our true nondual nature is forgotten due to being completely lost in the clouds of appearances that obscures.

We have knowledge that there is clearance behind the clouds, but this knowledge is futile useless, unless, we directly experience the truth, the clarity behind the clouds, which our true nature is. Truth is the open sky aware presence generous, non-judgmental, unbiased, open spacious self, being open to unobstructed flow of life. The oneness nature of awareness in which manifestation that seems to be appearing outside and experience that seems to happening within, but actually all are indeed Oneness.

Every cloud comes adrifting across the sky to tell us its story! ― Avijeet Das

Although lost in the cloudy mind, realize that I am not the cloud, inspite, of all that is arising I am not separate from the essence. Illusions and impurities cause separation of clouds from the sky, and I am is overly fascinated and invested in clouds of phenomenon. Note that all is just movement, ceaselessly moving as clouds in the sky, there is –“no thing” happening. But things that seem to appear are constructed by our own imaginations and interpretations of the passing momentary events. Realization is we are created from the essence of oneness of awareness. All phenomenon arises in infinite vast awareness, it is also the source and experiencer of phenomenon. Realize the incessant chatting which intercepts and blocks the flow of phenomenon splits the experience into subject object. Heaps of such layers strengthens the separate I, me, mine. Compulsive engagement in illusory beliefs, and obsessed with goals and ambitions building structures from passing clouds are destined to dissolve into the sky.

The sky and the sun are always there. It’s the clouds that come and go. – Rachel Joyce

🙏 May all my wholesome efforts brighten the path for all beings on the path.

Thankyou!! 🙏

Boundless Space

The Buddha said, “O Nobly Born, remember the pure open sky of your own true nature. Return to it. Trust it. It is home.”

Our default habitual tendency is to notice things in space rather than the space in between things. Walking into a room, it is the amount of stuff occupying the room impresses but not the empty space itself containing all stuff. Unoccupied space in uninteresting and wasted, so put an object there to beautify. By shifting focus from objects arising to beyond object- the field of awareness; from foreground to the background shifts observing from egoic self and accumulations to the open space of presence.

Tunnel vision of observing self, tightens the mind causes tension following a thought, analyzing ideas, working on emotions feelings and defilements. Instead, letting go to open vast awareness mind stabilizes easily and still, pleasant effortless concentration arises. In vast openness the rich wholeness of manifestation and capacity to receive comes together. But in narrow view via filters of separate self, come attachment, conflict confusion unskillful actions and consequences.

Practice relaxed sitting with senses wide open, shift awareness from one pointed witnessing of thoughts and feelings and sensations to open boundless space of experiencing not picking or choosing to focus, but maintaining an evenness of attention on whatever arises in the space of awareness. Presence becomes vast sky-like, barrier of inside outside dissolves, body melting into heaps of sensations, a conduit of awareness passage for sensations, thoughts feeling images and breath waving through. Notice, The observer merges into the vast space just as all other phenomenon, there is none looking at the open spacious awareness but open space itself. Every passing moment note changing nature of mind release habitual entanglement in ordinary sense of self dissolves and identification becomes selfless and free. 

The egoic self, personal I -focus on all that is arising, limits the view of the world amplifies painful narratives and suffering, perpetuates all neurotic thoughts and memories. Whereas,  widening the focus into the vast sky like spaciousness around and beyond all thoughts, images, feelings that pass through without conflict struggle, or harm and eventually dissipate in open presence. In this sense of expansiveness there is relief, smooth relaxed breathing, and with negligible or no impact of unskillful actions and tendencies. Open awareness is immediate and ever present, being here is liberating and it becomes the blissful resting place. 

It's a transformative experience to simply pause instead of immediately filling up space. -Pema Chodron

🙏 May I be the guiding light for all those on the path to realize their true nature.

Thankyou!!

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Everything is Thought

 We are shaped by our thoughts; we become what we think. When the mind is pure, joy follows like a shadow that never leaves. ~ Buddha

Everything in our reality comes from thoughts. We live in a world of thought projections.  Ideas about me, others, world, opinions, beliefs, interpretations, experiences, objects, spirituality, God etc are thoughts.

Thoughts are movement in consciousness that are temporary appearances.   Thoughts control your life. If you are focusing on the wrong things, then you’ll become miserable and unhappy. Our thoughts create our experiences, and thus, we experience what we think. Hence, the quality of our thoughts determine the quality of our life. 

There are many theories on the origin but it is not known they just pop up and disappear as words, images, voices from all around. They are empty in nature, meaningless, neutral, illusory they just pass by apparently inside our head. Grabbing, labelling and dwelling on them feeds them with energy and aliveness, it blow them out of proportion into monsters makes them a reality.

All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think we become. -Buddha

Thoughts are not facts, they are impermanent unless there is identification and association with them. Our thoughts become beliefs, and beliefs become the way you interpret reality. Even the idea of I, me, an individual, a person is a thought formation, a fantasy. Constant identification with thoughts and conditioned belief creates a phantom person, the ego self who appears to be thinking, having opinions, ideas, desires, etc. Nevertheless, the fact is there is no person thinking, the assumed person is another thought. A thought thinks as a person eventually is caught in its own cycle of self-feeding undesirable states.

The mind is compelling and convincing will trick us into believing that everything it tells is true and important. Happy, sad thoughts, fearful, hate, love shame, guilt are only thoughts, they aren’t facts, they are unreal and mean nothing. Thoughts control life, focusing on the wrong thinking then becomes source of suffering and misery. About 70% of the thoughts are negative and they gain power with attention that energize them. Engaging with thoughts trigger feelings and emotional states and is also expressed in body, speech, and actions. Surrounded and lost in thoughts create anxiety, OCDs, addictions dependencies and panic disorders.

Nothing can harm you as much as your own thoughts unguarded. ~ Buddha

Meditation helps in becoming aware of thought patterns stepping back and watching the mind gives space to choose right thoughts and also recognize the empty nature and causes of thoughts. Otherwise, life will be on auto pilot controlled by mind that can be like a wild beast attacking from all sides, unwholesome states of mind and self-perpetuating thoughts.

The greater part of human pain is unnecessary. It is self-created as long as the unobserved mind runs your life. –Eckhart Tolle

🙏May all beings be freed from the illusion of the world of thoughts and awaken to their true nature. 

Thankyou!!

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